What can Writing do to you?

What can writing do to you? I think it can do for you which you are seeking unconsciously and sometimes desperately. Desperate in a good way. 

Writing can extract the thought from our head and reduce the intensity of stress the thought is giving you. Writing can break the long long and continuous long sentences in our head and break it into simpler ones.  While writing, I remember the naive me, the cruel me, the unobservant me, the loving me, the hopeful me. Writing re-creates the feeling which sea waves gives me. Sea waves instantly makes me hopeful. Remembering it even regenerates the scenario of waves coming and going back. The certainty of movement of waves creates stability. It draws us closer to the whole wide world. Even after hailing from Himalayas, the sudden calm which sea waves gives me, mountains do not make me feel  that. Perhaps it is about water. When I have sat near the Gori Ganga in my mum's hometown, Mavani, a village in Uttarakhand, I feel astonished. I feel as if the whole world has come to still.It makes all the larger than life processes, unhealed traumas, bundles of complaints against the whole world standing still. It makes me wonder and wish, my ancestors should never have migrated. Urban areas have corrupted our morality and heart. It has made us less trustworthy of each other.It reduces slowly the human in us and what remains is us constantly reminding ourselves to still believe in humanity. All these thoughts are not gloomy but just raw feelings which a running Himalyan river can give you. This is what writing can do. It can make you and me more humane. Writing can make us rise from excuses we give when we behave bitterly to ourselves . It makes us remember how far we have come and how we only know the heaps of love we wanted to shower on past loves and friends but then we stopped. It can make us remember the reasons to make peace with past and reasons to move forward in life. It gives us the answer to "i don't know". This constant "i don't know" slowly comes up frequently in my answers.I actually do not have answer the questions of " why am I worrying so much", " pandemic is out of my control still then why am I anxious about career"  and  " why i feel relieved with  less people in my close circle". Some questions compels us to confront us our selfish nature, some questions serve as reminder to behave morally, some remind us how much we have changed from what we understood the kind of person we would be in our late 20s. 

Writing makes me want me to align myself to before I behaved according to the situation and laying the responsibility of my behavior on other person. 

Among all these reminders, it makes me remember my dreams and aspirations.It is asking me to put lazyness on the back seat and finally "do" something. It is a call to be more disciplined and not drool so much in past that present becomes past and  I forget that there is a reason there are three tenses in life and this right now, is present tense and this is all I have. 

Hoping that  I actually implement all the emotions writing evokes in me. All the best to me!