Lost Love

I wrote this in Feb, 2020 and my friends read it here. But then  I deleted it from here. But here it is again, for you, for me.

Lately if one aspect which keeps revolving in my mind is the people whom I loved , the ones with whom I have shared so many close moments that forgetting those moments is not possible. If I do forget, it would be  a disgrace to the times we spent together. Even if I do try to forget it , google keeps reminding me what happened two years back.

I have ego issues so I am coming here .

I am coming here to tell them that love hasn’t been lost. I remember the way girlfriends can make each other feel which cannot and should not be compared to anything else. Those friendships , some are here in my hands , some gone , some lost and some in between here and gone.

I am here to appreciate when you have accepted me for what I am. I am here to apologise for when I was too proud to accept my mistakes and under the garb of my righteousness, I just thrusted my opinion. I am here to rekindle those memories itched and written in my heart which are fond memories and nothing else. I am apologetic when I was angry and raised my voice and was just rude and nothing else.

I am here to show thankfulness for loving me and laughing with me . I am here to try to make some amends with you and myself. I am here to accept my mistakes and relive those moments as I would like to believe that I did involve myself in friendships with whole heart . But I am also here to demand more reciprocation of love I feel in my heart for friendships because if not returned , any heart might just go dry.

Other relationships might go here and there , but friendship, it makes life worth living . In the race of  building career , I do not wish to let love to be lost .

It just adds that spice to life in the absence of which , every new event becomes less interesting. If I won’t share my latest happenings in life with friends , the same event become less interesting and almost repetitive. My sorrows increase and happiness lessens in the absence of you.

I have been a fool to assume this love for granted because I  assumed,  it will always be there as it has always been been till now but I guess it needs brushing , polishing and renewal. I am on it.